Really

My secret wife and I have now had time together as man and wife.
No, not that. Just time in a parking lot in her car. And the most intense kisees I've ever had, and I acquit myself a good kisser.
But she opened up, mouth agape, more than any woman I've been with (never kissed a guy, sorry), a raw, needing, wide open mouth to mouth embrace beyond my experience.
But something I want again. And something I feel still.

No, no idea what to do but love her. That's enough, I think.